HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

總算我們也愛過

或许

对你来说

我们曾经不算什么

或许

是我高估了自己复原的能力

你的一字一句

就像针扎在心里

你的无心

竟让我如此难受

就如你所说的

都已经分手了那么久

我怎么可能还放不下你

对啊

我怎么会放不下你呢

即使放下了

就可以毫无顾忌的替我选择适合我的人吗？

你知道我跟他根本不可能

我的幸福我自己晓得。

虽然分手了

我们總算也愛過

你就非要把我推给别人不可

虽然分手了

你的无心插柳仍让我觉得受伤

我没有还放不下你。

你放心。

我的幸福我自己晓得。

要怎么说？

你是否

曾经放纵..

让酒精麻木自己..

让烟熏模糊双眼..

随着音乐忘我的摇摆..

与陌生人共舞..

在人群中的你,

是否也和我一样如此痛苦?

也为得到一丝丝的解脱而来到此地..

清醒了，

懊恼怎么那么不爱惜自己..

我们都只是凡夫俗子..

又怎么可能笑看人生？

Days without stress and worriess..

Trouble things keep turning around me throughout half of this year..

I cried. I feel helpless. Disappointed. And even have a thought of giving out my life.

There were few times, I almost involved in accident, I thought there will be an end of my life, but fortunately I escaped from it.

Maybe is still not the time for me to meet the god of death yet.

Missing my flight and spent 550+ to get a new flight ticket is really a terrible case.

Is so heartbreaking whenever I think of the 550 can be used to help those unfortunate children, I can even adopt a child from world vision for a year but I wasted it like this.

It is my fault for being late and I just can´t forgive myself, but gladly I got to volunteer to help in the Buddha Relic Blessing Puja which is a big and meaningful event that shouldn´t miss. Sincerely, I feel better after that, there is always gain and lost. I should have take it with calm.

Right after the puja, I start working hard to repay the flight ticket to my mom.

Even though she said never mind, but I insist to do so..

Work and work and work. I don't go shopping.

I feel bad everytime I reject my friends when they asked me out.

But I have to stay at home so that I won't waste more and I hope they understand me.

This sounds lifeless to others but I do enjoy staying at home.  =)

However, I couldn't stop thinking.. How to earn more money in this 2 months. How should I fulfill my time meaningfully.. What can I do to improve my relationship with my sis and mom.. I tried to understand my bro more, as he needs lots of love and care in this young age. I learned to communicate effectively with them. I'm more patient now, I learned to forgive, learned to tolerate more. I hate quarreling. PEACE!

And here, I would like to thank my dailou, phang sheng for bringing me to this penang trip.

I do enjoy these days. In these few days,I can really put down my worries and enjoy! Thanks a lot. =)   Glad to meet new friends as well- Jessie, Kae Liang, Tshien and Alex.

They are fun and sincere. Nice to meet you guys! ^^

Although some people out there trying to make rumors between me and ps.. Sometimes, I'm really tired to explain. Maybe for ps is nothing but not for me.

I just dislike it. I believe true friends will believe in me.

The truth is always visible and no worth for me to explain to those unworthy people.

Holiday ends and is time for me to work hard, earn more!!

ADD OIL JUVINA!! Always improve yourself to be a better person!  =)

2010 Wishlist.

1. Own a camera.

2. Earn 3k during sem break. 

    aheemm. This sounds kinda impossible. =D

    But nothing is impossible!  
    
    work as telemarketer in mep for 2 months, event jobs, selling world-cup products at night.

3. Spend my time in sunway lagoon with my dear bro.

    wonderful day. :)  had Pasta Zanmai for dinner. yummmiiee!!

4. Get my diving license!

    incredible huh? yes, no doubt, is DIVING!! ><

5. Buffet! I gotta have 1 day free for it! 

6. Score 3.0 and above in my final.

    I don't need 4.0 just 3 and above is enough.  =)

That's all i guess? In fact 5/6 of my wishes need $$$. 

I gotta work really really hard. 

CHEERS!!

がんばって!!

惰

惰性难收！！

啊丫丫~

明天又明天。。

蹉跎岁月，

望及难返。

Thought of waking up early in the morning and prepare myself in a study mood,

but end up I doing nothing for the entire day.

Study only takes 1/4 of my time, and wth am I doing for the rest of 3/4 ?

This ain't good. I gotta get into the pace again.

*screwed up*

PROCRASTINATION IS NEVER ALLOWED !

烟

寂寞的雨夜闪着电
想不起你的缠绵

房间里黑丝绒窗帘
隔离了我的视线
镜子里剩半张照片
笑容有一点孤单

手指间夹住的香烟
熏红了我的双眼

我不会抽烟 是因为失恋
想赶走疲倦 适得其反

我不想抽烟 害怕它蔓延
爱情的观点 在雾里沦陷

我没有抽烟 是一种习惯
学不会分辨 有生之年
 

我恨你抽烟 戒不掉思念
眼睁睁看着 你把它点燃
 

戒不掉的人

抽烟，

是羡慕手持一根香烟的帅气姿势？ 

是迷恋每吸一口嘴角缭绕的烟雾？ 

或许抽烟的人都是寂寞的人吧？ 

烟是寂寞时的情人

罪对

晒命  无罪

没钱  不对
 

丑陋  没罪

美艳  认罪

自私  很对

牺牲  所谓

滥交  无罪

失恋  不对

等待  无谓

离开 退位

对是不对

不对变对

忆

又掉进回忆里了

好不想清醒

这么久了

还无法接受事实

可否活在回忆里

回忆过去

现实残酷

  快乐常常来自回忆，而痛苦常常来自于回忆与现实的差距 

快乐已很少

现实仍折磨

处在人群里

感觉不到躯体

麻木

灵魂在远方观看着

抽离人群

才可以得到真正的解脱

If I Ain't Got You

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power

Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things

Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you

If I ain't got you

Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me


Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you 

If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me 

So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me