Sunday, May 30, 2010

Days without stress and worriess..

Trouble things keep turning around me throughout half of this year..

I cried. I feel helpless. Disappointed. And even have a thought of giving out my life.

There were few times, I almost involved in accident, I thought there will be an end of my life, but fortunately I escaped from it.

Maybe is still not the time for me to meet the god of death yet.

Missing my flight and spent 550+ to get a new flight ticket is really a terrible case.
Is so heartbreaking whenever I think of the 550 can be used to help those unfortunate children, I can even adopt a child from world vision for a year but I wasted it like this.

It is my fault for being late and I just can´t forgive myself, but gladly I got to volunteer to help in the Buddha Relic Blessing Puja which is a big and meaningful event that shouldn´t miss. Sincerely, I feel better after that, there is always gain and lost. I should have take it with calm.

Right after the puja, I start working hard to repay the flight ticket to my mom.
Even though she said never mind, but I insist to do so..

Work and work and work. I don't go shopping.
I feel bad everytime I reject my friends when they asked me out.
But I have to stay at home so that I won't waste more and I hope they understand me.
This sounds lifeless to others but I do enjoy staying at home.  =)

However, I couldn't stop thinking.. How to earn more money in this 2 months. How should I fulfill my time meaningfully.. What can I do to improve my relationship with my sis and mom.. I tried to understand my bro more, as he needs lots of love and care in this young age. I learned to communicate effectively with them. I'm more patient now, I learned to forgive, learned to tolerate more. I hate quarreling. PEACE!

And here, I would like to thank my dailou, phang sheng for bringing me to this penang trip.
I do enjoy these days. In these few days,I can really put down my worries and enjoy! Thanks a lot. =)   Glad to meet new friends as well- Jessie, Kae Liang, Tshien and Alex.
They are fun and sincere. Nice to meet you guys! ^^

Although some people out there trying to make rumors between me and ps.. Sometimes, I'm really tired to explain. Maybe for ps is nothing but not for me.
I just dislike it. I believe true friends will believe in me.
The truth is always visible and no worth for me to explain to those unworthy people.
Holiday ends and is time for me to work hard, earn more!!

ADD OIL JUVINA!! Always improve yourself to be a better person!  =)

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