Saturday, September 25, 2010

Girls at 20 ------ 陶晶莹

去探索、去玩、去奔放,偶爾瘋狂、別太失控。

戀愛最好能談個四、五段;別想在這個時期結婚,因為妳自己的經驗不夠、判斷就會失準。

先用妳的本性、野性去戀愛,再從每一個不同對象身上學習,然後修練自己。

少跟男友去逛家俱店和市場,別沉浸在那種兩個人好像新婚夫妻般的幻想裡,妳會害死自己。

當然,看著他時眼神還是要專心地迷濛,但心裡要冷靜地告訴自己:「等一下,再等一下,他有可能只是過客。」

多去旅行、看書、看電影,多去做一些妳夢想中想做的事、去妳夢寐以求的地方,因為在二十幾歲不做、以後可能沒機會了──就算以後有機會,那感覺是不會一樣的。

累積各方面的經驗:工作經驗、戀愛經驗、被騙、吃虧、受害的經驗,還有,性經驗。

二十歲的女孩,體力正好,多去體驗。但不是要妳去濫交。

有些事,還是要三思。
比如說刺青,比如說整型。

人的長相是會變的,氣質也是,多給自己一些成長的機會,不要輕易改變妳的容貌。

二十歲,有什麼好怕的! 


by 陶子
-我爱故我在-

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

總算我們也愛過

或许
对你来说
我们曾经不算什么

或许
是我高估了自己复原的能力

你的一字一句
就像针扎在心里

你的无心
竟让我如此难受

就如你所说的
都已经分手了那么久
我怎么可能还放不下你

对啊
我怎么会放不下你呢

即使放下了
就可以毫无顾忌的替我选择适合我的人吗?
你知道我跟他根本不可能

我的幸福我自己晓得。

虽然分手了
我们總算也愛過

你就非要把我推给别人不可

虽然分手了
你的无心插柳仍让我觉得受伤

我没有还放不下你。
你放心。

我的幸福我自己晓得。

Monday, May 31, 2010

要怎么说?

你是否
曾经放纵..

让酒精麻木自己..
让烟熏模糊双眼..
随着音乐忘我的摇摆..
与陌生人共舞..

在人群中的你,
是否也和我一样如此痛苦?
也为得到一丝丝的解脱而来到此地..

清醒了,
懊恼怎么那么不爱惜自己..

我们都只是凡夫俗子..
又怎么可能笑看人生?

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Days without stress and worriess..

Trouble things keep turning around me throughout half of this year..

I cried. I feel helpless. Disappointed. And even have a thought of giving out my life.

There were few times, I almost involved in accident, I thought there will be an end of my life, but fortunately I escaped from it.

Maybe is still not the time for me to meet the god of death yet.

Missing my flight and spent 550+ to get a new flight ticket is really a terrible case.
Is so heartbreaking whenever I think of the 550 can be used to help those unfortunate children, I can even adopt a child from world vision for a year but I wasted it like this.

It is my fault for being late and I just can´t forgive myself, but gladly I got to volunteer to help in the Buddha Relic Blessing Puja which is a big and meaningful event that shouldn´t miss. Sincerely, I feel better after that, there is always gain and lost. I should have take it with calm.

Right after the puja, I start working hard to repay the flight ticket to my mom.
Even though she said never mind, but I insist to do so..

Work and work and work. I don't go shopping.
I feel bad everytime I reject my friends when they asked me out.
But I have to stay at home so that I won't waste more and I hope they understand me.
This sounds lifeless to others but I do enjoy staying at home.  =)

However, I couldn't stop thinking.. How to earn more money in this 2 months. How should I fulfill my time meaningfully.. What can I do to improve my relationship with my sis and mom.. I tried to understand my bro more, as he needs lots of love and care in this young age. I learned to communicate effectively with them. I'm more patient now, I learned to forgive, learned to tolerate more. I hate quarreling. PEACE!

And here, I would like to thank my dailou, phang sheng for bringing me to this penang trip.
I do enjoy these days. In these few days,I can really put down my worries and enjoy! Thanks a lot. =)   Glad to meet new friends as well- Jessie, Kae Liang, Tshien and Alex.
They are fun and sincere. Nice to meet you guys! ^^

Although some people out there trying to make rumors between me and ps.. Sometimes, I'm really tired to explain. Maybe for ps is nothing but not for me.
I just dislike it. I believe true friends will believe in me.
The truth is always visible and no worth for me to explain to those unworthy people.
Holiday ends and is time for me to work hard, earn more!!

ADD OIL JUVINA!! Always improve yourself to be a better person!  =)

Sunday, April 25, 2010

2010 Wishlist.

1. Own a camera.

2. Earn 3k during sem break. 
    aheemm. This sounds kinda impossible. =D
    But nothing is impossible!  
    
    work as telemarketer in mep for 2 months, event jobs, selling world-cup products at night.

3. Spend my time in sunway lagoon with my dear bro.

    wonderful day. :)  had Pasta Zanmai for dinner. yummmiiee!!

4. Get my diving license!
    incredible huh? yes, no doubt, is DIVING!! ><

5. Buffet! I gotta have 1 day free for it! 

6. Score 3.0 and above in my final.
    I don't need 4.0 just 3 and above is enough.  =)



That's all i guess? In fact 5/6 of my wishes need $$$. 
I gotta work really really hard. 

CHEERS!!

がんばって!!

惰

惰性难收!!

啊丫丫~
明天又明天。。

蹉跎岁月,
望及难返。

Thought of waking up early in the morning and prepare myself in a study mood,
but end up I doing nothing for the entire day.

Study only takes 1/4 of my time, and wth am I doing for the rest of 3/4 ?
This ain't good. I gotta get into the pace again.

*screwed up*

PROCRASTINATION IS NEVER ALLOWED !

Saturday, April 10, 2010

烟

寂寞的雨夜闪着电
想不起你的缠绵

房间里黑丝绒窗帘
隔离了我的视线
镜子里剩半张照片
笑容有一点孤单

手指间夹住的香烟
熏红了我的双眼

我不会抽烟 是因为失恋
想赶走疲倦 适得其反

我不想抽烟 害怕它蔓延
爱情的观点 在雾里沦陷

我没有抽烟 是一种习惯
学不会分辨 有生之年
 
我恨你抽烟 戒不掉思念
眼睁睁看着 你把它点燃
 
戒不掉的人




















抽烟,

是羡慕手持一根香烟的帅气姿势? 

是迷恋每吸一口嘴角缭绕的烟雾? 

或许抽烟的人都是寂寞的人吧? 

烟是寂寞时的情人

Friday, April 9, 2010

罪对

晒命  无罪
没钱  不对
 
丑陋  没罪
美艳  认罪

自私  很对
牺牲  所谓

滥交  无罪
失恋  不对

等待  无谓
离开 退位

对是不对
不对变对


忆


又掉进回忆里了
好不想清醒

这么久了
还无法接受事实

可否活在回忆里

回忆过去
现实残酷

  快乐常常来自回忆,而痛苦常常来自于回忆与现实的差距 

快乐已很少
现实仍折磨

处在人群里
感觉不到躯体

麻木
灵魂在远方观看着

抽离人群
才可以得到真正的解脱