KISS THE RAIN ♪

生命中
不断有人离开或进入
于是
看见的， 看不见了
记住的， 遗忘了


生命中
不断地有 得到 和 失落
于是
看不见的， 看见 了
遗忘 的，记住 了


然而
看不见的
是不是就 等于 不存在
记住的
是不是永远不会消失。。

❤ you, daddy!

今天收到了你的信息
真的好高兴。。

原来你还是关心我的。

自从那次与你大吵一架后，
我们的关系越来越疏远了。。

我真的不知该怎么弥补
该怎么让你明白
我真的很关心你
很在乎你
只因为你是我的爸爸。。

为什么你总是那么顽固
总以为自己是对的
都一大把年纪了
还以为自己是二十几岁的年轻人

为什么你总是不会想
不懂得为家里付出多一些
这些都是你身为父亲的责任啊

到了这个结局
是你想要的吗？
是我们想要的吗？
你难道没有一点点舍不得吗？
 

我不信
我看得出来你还是很爱我们，很爱妈妈的
只是方式错了

现在
一切都结束了
我们已没有办法回到过去了

Daddy, please take good care of yourself.
We will always ❤ you.
Please do not doubt our love. We really mean it.
Although you had hurt us, but no matter how, you are always our dear daddy.
Please do not say that we wouldn't take care of you,
Please do not say that we wouldn't bother you.
All these are just your suspicions.
Can you just believe us for once?
Don't you feel tired if you keep suspecting on others?
Do believe us, daddy.
Do take care of yourself as we can't always be beside you anymore.
Especially your hand.
I feel so pain when i heard that you broke your hand.
Can you really feel how i feel before you make your own judgement?
You don't even know your children well.. How sad it is.
The day before i leave, i thought you might bring me out for dinner or maybe breakfast.
But you didn't.
You know that we wouldn't meet  for 5 months, but you didn't even come and find me.
Its hurt. I miss you.
This is what i feel and i would like to express here.
Because i know i do not have the chance to tell you all these..

TAKE CARE DADDY~ 
love you always.



your love,
daughter Juvina
 

如果一切只是演戏

要你好好看戏

心碎只是我自己

我想对你好 

你从来不知道

想你 想你 也能成为嗜好

无眠

今天月亮 怎麼那麼明亮
照著我，整晚都睡不著
連頭毛都沒休息
你可知道，我對你的思念
希望你有同樣的夢
我們兩人，一起回來那一天 互相依偎的情愛

在你的心上
是不是還有我的存在
永遠都在 等
有時候也會不甘願

想要一起 飛
去一個心中美麗 的地方
所有的一切
全都和你放在一起
希望你可以瞭解

我不管用多少時間 多少眼淚  多少失望 來 忍耐
我不管你何時會回來
其實我也不知道爲了什爲了 什麼傻傻等待
你是我唯一的 愛  ♥ 




- 苏打绿 -

LOVE ?

haha. a guy just confess to me. 
should i be happy?
same thing he told me.

"Im serious.
I really wish to take care of you and protect you.
You are the kind of girl that I like.
I really mean it."

Is this the 经典对白  for a guy to take a girl's heart?


Touch? Shock?
hahahaha. I have no idea.


What is love?
I experienced it before.
Its sweet but yet pain as well.
people keeps telling me how they love me. care for me.
as if it is real.
show me your love but not just say through words.


I really don't know what am i thinking..
perhaps you will know?

Something unhappy happened just now.
My mood will only get affected for one reason - family.

9th December 2009 is the day.
thought everything is going to end.
but tragedy happens again and again.
it never ends!

pain.
its really pain.
who can really understand my pain?
i have been hiding my emotion and keep it well.
love is everything for me.
love for family.
love for friends.
but for sure family is always the first.

for the past relationships,
im always serious.
once i involved in a relationship,
bf is a part of my family.
which i care, love.
he is the only shoulder for me, the only person i can depend on.
i give out my heart and i get hurt.

so why should i be so serious?
since i feel so insecure in love,
whats the best way for me to be loved by someone and not being hurt?
perhaps playing around?
enjoy the happiness even though it is short.
should it be like that.
hahahaha..

why troubles keep coming to me.
i need a breath.
i need a hug.
i need a kiss.
anything it will do to heal my broken heart.
i will not show my negative feelings anymore.
i have learned to accept everything it is. 
 
angry. sad.
if you can see through my eyes, u will feel it.

I just hope to be loved.

失败者，

是我
是我

是我做得还不够吗？
我每次都这么问我自己
 
我给的自由不够多吗？
我只希望你多点陪我不行吗？
拜一到拜五的时间都是和你朋友
拜六礼拜陪我有错吗？
 
朋友，午餐见了晚餐又见
你有没有为我想过？
什么是“难道我就没有陪你吃过饭吗？”
绝望了

难道陪我吃饭是不应该的
好的，我知道了

你说你需要自由
好的，我给你

到了最后
就是这样了
原来这就是你要的

我们之间的距离越来越远
你到底懂不懂？

两个月不到
原形毕露
是你变了
还是我根本不了解你

一直以来
我都是那个一发现有问题就立刻解决的人
可是你们有没有真真了解过？   
为什么总觉得我在无理取闹？
这段感情是这样
上一段也是这样

我很累了
难道我们就不能一起解决问题吗？
 
两个人在一起
不是一个人付出

说得容易
但做到了吗？
最讨厌那些只会说的人
当我需要人安慰时，
谁会在我身边？
是谁？

看透了
真是看透了爱情
 
不要对我说天长地久，甜言蜜语的屁话
在我字典里没有这些字
我并不是其他的女生
有本事就证明给我看
不要只是说
难道对我用心有那么困难吗？
我要的很简单。

或许我就是那么不值得被珍惜  被疼爱吧！


算了
说的太多 也没用了
  
沉默吧！

Because I'm A Girl ⋆

It's impossible to understand what's going through a guy's heart.

You told me that you wanted me and now that I've given you everything, you tell me that you're leaving..
You told me that it was the first time, you felt this way and said that I was special..
I believed you... and it was my happiness.

You should've told me that your feelings had faded,
I had no idea and I continued to depend on you..
Although I say I hate you now..
I'll be missing you...
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything..

They say that when you give a guy all he wants, he quickly gets bored,
And now, I know that's the truth....
Although I tell myself, I'll never be tricked by love again.
But I fall in love and my heart is broken again..

You should've told me that your feelings had faded,
I had no idea and I continued to depend on you..
Although I say I hate you now..
I'll be missing you...


Please don't break the hearts of girls, who will do anything for love.
I didn't know that living this life while being loved would be so hard.
Although I say I hate you now..
I'll be missing you...
Because I am a girl, to whom love is really everything..

Although I say I hate you now..
I'll be missing you...
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything..


" Today we broke up, you told me to meet someone who is better than you, and be happy.."
" You're just like all the other guys, what happened to you when you told me you loved me? "
" Honestly, I don't want you to be happy, what am I going to do if you really forget about me? "
" I'm in so much pain,more pain than i can bare.. because I'm still in love with you! "


Please don't break the hearts of girls, who will do anything for love.
I didn't know that living this life while being loved would be so hard.
Although I say I hate you now..
I'll be missing you...
Because I am a girl, to whom love is really everything..

BEFORE AFTER

Before

When...

 

 

After

Guess what before and after?  ^^

我还能够做什么？

除了在这里担心着，
告诉我还能做什么？
 
听着妈妈在电话的另一端低泣
读着妹妹写的那一篇文章
面对着爸爸频频要我做选择
要我怎样？

爸爸说跟她
妈妈说跟他

好不好我谁都不选
如果可以真希望不依靠你们

不要问我为何如此偏激
又有谁真的明白我有多重视他们
巨蟹座的女人，家庭就是她的一切

但我只是希望以我自己的方式过活
因为我真的累了
很累了
 
这十九年来
怎样的家庭
塑造了怎样的我
 
悲观
没自信
假装坚强
对于这样的一个我
我觉得很累

或许选择来这里并没有错
来到这个没有人认识我的地方
我重新出发
重新过活
做一个全新的林姿伶

妹说的对
从小看着一幕幕的争吵 打骂
自杀 威胁 拿刀 砸椅
什么没看过 没见识过
 
哈！
感觉就像是发生在电视里的情节吧
但却实实的发生在我身上
很少会向别人说起家里的事
我不需要别人的同情
更不需要证明我并不是你们以为的那位被父母宠惯的女孩
相信时间会证明一切



如果你认为我很幼稚，
那就随你便。


只是你还没真正了解我。

Sabah- Started my uni life here.

IM BACK~!!
miss me??  lol

dont worry, im fine here.
not very used to it at 1st.
but now get used to it finally.   =)
i can adapt to the environment quite fast~ 

1st week already have loads of assignments!!  sob*
anyway starting to know a lot of friends~ 
woohoO~ loving my uni life now.
although is quite tough for me to walk here and there,
my leg is getting worst. bengkak already.  T.T
but i did get some cream from the clinic, so no worries.. hehe..
miss everyone!!! 
take care buddies!  love ya~! muacks!!